Looking for a Friend: Austin Hayman
Austin Hayman does not paint landmark occasions. When he considers different periods of his life, he finds that memory does not organize itself around the events that seemed to matter at the time. It settles, instead, into the unremarkable and the repeated: the sheets in a first apartment, the Monday walk taken the same way week after week, the way light arrived through a window at a predictable hour every day. Their significance accumulates in the gaps between the moments we expect to matter. The moments that define what a life actually looks like.
Hayman was born in Los Angeles and raised in Sonoma County, where the unhurried rhythms of wine country now register, from the vantage of the city, as something achingly remote. That distance resides in Hayman’s work: an attunement to the texture of a room, the weight of an afternoon, the way a person holds themselves when they think no one is really looking. The figures in this exhibition are Hayman's friends, and their identities inform the compositional choices made around them, each person rendered with the particular warmth of being seen and known. In Three Apples, a friend who lassoes and juggles appears before a window, three apples scattered around her: the domestic interior admits the logic of a variety performance while alluding to the quietness of one’s inner world. For a moment, this intimacy, rooted in Hayman’s personal experiences, becomes a tenderness many may recognize.
Our understanding of the people around us is never fixed, but continuously revised by small moments, interactions, and memories. He approaches a painting the way one approaches a song, trusting and revising his works, rarely abandoning a canvas. His figures carry this same quality: intimate and slightly estranged, present and slightly withheld. The effect is not surrealism in the declarative sense, still, something more structurally relational: a person examined closely enough that their familiarity begins to reveal their resistance to being fully defined.
Looking for a Friend, Hayman’s debut solo presentation at Make Room, holds two ideas simultaneously. There is anxiety beneath the phrase made literal: a question Hayman returns to at different stages of his life, of whether he might live somewhere else and fail to connect the way he connects with those around him now. And there is the more ordinary version: “I’m looking for a friend” is the thing you say when you walk into a crowded room already looking for someone you know. Los Angeles carries a reputation as a city of surfaces and strategic encounters. Hayman's paintings are an argument against that idea, built from the inside out. He paints his friends, people he spends real time with, rendered in the rooms they actually inhabit, surrounded by the objects that belong to them. The city, for Hayman, is defined by the people you meet and the experiences you have there, and his have been ones of connection.